My faith in God is becoming harder and harder to maintain. He has let me down time and time again. Eventually when you have been hurt enough you let go. And I think this is what I need to do. God is not there for me.
A position had opened up in the company I work for and it would have been perfect for me. I had the experience for this job and the money would have been a tremendous help to me financially. I prayed and prayed that I would get an interview for this job. I knew once I got the interview I could sell myself.
But God did not answer my prayers. God has not answered any of my prayers for over 5 years now. It's like he has forgotten all about me. I have had many hard times that I needed his help and he has let me down. Don't get me wrong I don't just pray for things for myself I also pray for other people, and still I get nothing from him.
My relationship with God is like a relationship with another person. You love this other person and ask for their advice and when you get nothing time and time again, you finally just have to let go because you see this other person wants nothing to do with you.
I have been moved to a new office in my company and I will be working for people I do not really care for. They are uppity, snobby, self centered. I don't want to be there in that group of people but did God stop that from happening? A big NO on that one. So now I get to be miserable in this new office. Thanks God for nothing!
I will have to look at this relationship, it may be time to cut ties with God. Although he probably wouldn't even notice I was gone.
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